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Hey Beauties, I know you will enjoy reading The Dark Side of Transformation by my friend Lisa C. Adams. Lisa is a magical wordsmith with a powerful story to share with us. Enjoy!


Our culture is obsessed with transformation. You see it everywhere, from makeovers, to home renovations, to the beautiful coming out and recognition of our transgendered friends, at long last. We see and revere the short, exquisite life of a butterfly.

At some point along our personal journeys of awareness, we begin consciously working on our own evolution, giving way to personal transformation. We become more and more aware of all the ways in which we need to take responsibility for our shit, own it, and work to change it. As we go further along the personal path, we uncover layer upon layer of wound, dis-pattern, and dysfunction.

Transformation can come from a joyful experience like birth or marriage. But, it often comes on the heels of tragedy, loss, or crisis. These events are great initiators; they catalyze the necessity to change.

Initiation is not a destination. It’s a beginning. A Call to Action. By the time that leg of the journey comes to a close, our lives and our inner selves aren’t recognizable.

We look, dig, and sift. Excavate, transmute, and transcend. Like a snake whose skin gets too tight to contain its growth, we shed. And we shed.

Typical spiritual teachings tend to focus on love, light, and ascension. We’re told to rise above our lower, base tendencies, bring in more light, and love everyone and everything.

I don’t know about you, but that approach only gets me so far. Beneath the gooey-sweet, feel-good, was all the trash, dirt, and debris of real pain and unhappiness. Not to mention those times when I’m confident I could rip someone’s head off with a mere gaze.

But really, that love and light stuff, nice as it is, isn’t all-healing. It’s void of depth. It’s not what moves us beyond our wounds. Love and light doesn’t cut it – it’s only part of the equation.

We need to feel that rage or pain in order to know it. We have to know it in order to approach it with understanding. Then, the alchemy of healing can begin.

Love and light are yang energies, masculine in nature. In order to do the Work of healing ourselves to wholeness and restore our equilibrium, we need that dark, yin, feminine energy of going below ground; underground into the deep caverns of the Shadow.

After all, there is no light without dark. No day without night. No sun without the moon. The inner and outer are one in the same.

What many spiritual or new age teachers don’t acknowledge is that the dark is where we hide all that we don’t wish to see, deal with, or feel. That the Dark Night of the Soul doesn’t typically last one night – that it may take years to chuck that shit for good and become anew. Living into our potential.

As we devote time, energy, blood, sweat, and tears to our Inner Work, we uncover pain and secrets. And there we are, faced with every ugly thing we hate in others and deny in ourselves – jealousy, anger, pain, insecurity, neuroses, rage… Buried away in the dark crevasses we had no idea dwelled inside our souls.

Have you ever experienced the unnerving feeling of cave darkness? Scary stuff. It’s practically suffocating, and certainly disorienting.

And, at the same time, it’s the darkness that provides rest, gives us stars and fireflies, and informs us of just how strong we truly are. When faced with pain or loss, we find exactly where our true strength resides. Just as the blacksmith knows that the strength of the blade lies in the forge. We can stare down the ugly demons within us, and know that we have survived. We may have even slain the demon, or befriended it.

When you go deep, that’s when you get thrown into the fires of alchemy. So deep, I’m talking molten-core-of-the-earth deep. Beyond hot and fiery. Where forms cease. And all is one. Eventually giving rise to the Phoenix within.

I invite you – go deep. And then, go deeper. Be afraid, but keep going.

Give it over. All of it. Surrender your pain, fears, ugliness, your nasty little secrets. Let it move through you. Move the energy through sounds – screams, moans, cries, a howl at the moon. Use breath work, cry those unshed tears, move the energy through your body with dance, yoga, sweat, and sexual release.

Give it over as an offering to all that is holy and profane.

Let fire burn through it and raise it to the ground, providing fertile soil for what you will plant in its place. Put it all to rest as you bury it way down in Mother Earth, down Her fiery core. Make it into the compost of life.

But watch out because you may no longer recognize who you become. You may lose all of your friends, and gain new, better ones. You may become estranged from your family. You may give up the love of your life. You may re-locate, or start a new career.
You might even lose the anger, hatred, fear, dysfunction, and bitterness that’s been your identity. You may even find moments of peace.

I stand in awe of your initiation.

About Lisa

Lisa C. Adams writes for Transformation Goddess

Lisa’s calling is helping women create healthier, more fulfilled lives filled with magic and mysticism. She uses a blend of ritual, intuitive spiritual counseling, energy healing, and readings, to guide women along their healing journeys, to a deeper personal connection to the Goddess within. Lisa believes that a woman’s relationship to her Inner Goddess empowers her to be a force of healing transformation for her family and community.

As a High Priestess, Lisa engages with the Goddess and Earth-based communities – teaching and leading others, and facilitating rituals of healing, connection, and transformation.
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About Shann Vander Leek

Shann Vander Leek

Shann Vander Leek is an Award Winning Podcaster, Best Selling Author, Voice Over Talent, Podcast Coach, and Media Expert.

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  • shannvanderleek Aug 12, 2015, 7:17 am

    Dear Lisa,

    Thank you for sharing the Dark Side of Transformation with Transformation Goddess! We are honored to receive and publish your Divine Feminine wisdom. XOX – Shann

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 1:43 pm

      Shann- it is entirely my pleasure and honor to write and share with you and your audience. You have richly blessed me! <3

  • Theresa Aug 12, 2015, 7:25 am

    “Initiation is not a destination.” I love that! Very powerful messages!

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 1:43 pm

      Thank you. Indeed, initiation is a beginning. xoxo

  • Melissa Aug 12, 2015, 7:30 am

    Yes! This resonates loudly with me. It was not until I went deep, very deep, where all the darkness and gooey stuff lived, that I found peace. Until then, the yang energies of peace and light were like a bandaid, giving only temporary relief. After years of work extricating the Darkness from my soul, my life is filled with love and light. Thank you for this beautiful post.

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 1:45 pm

      Oh Melissa – I’m glad it resonated. It’s my story, your story, and most women’s story. The darkness isn’t easy, but it does let us know ourselves and we learn we are all we need. We have everything within us. And, we are ok.

  • Debra Reble Aug 12, 2015, 8:07 am

    This article speaks to me as I know that when I’m vulnerable I’m closest to the light. And recently I’ve had to dive deep to release layers of pain to transform again and again and again. Thank you Shann for sharing such an inspirational passage. Blessings

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 8:43 pm

      That is a powerful insight about being vulnerable when you’re closest to the light. You’ve got my wheels turning in that direction…checking in…new perspective. Thank you, Debra! <3

  • Sheila Callaham Aug 12, 2015, 8:53 am

    Beautifully written, Lisa! This is a post I’ll read more than once and gain deeper wisdom each time. Thanks, Shann, for sharing Lisa with your tribe. xo

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 8:41 pm

      Thank you! <3

  • Linda Aug 12, 2015, 9:32 am

    Yes! We all need to acknowledge that we’re not just light and pink cotton candy. We all have our dark sides, and if we try to ignore them or hide from the, they’ll come up and bite us eventually.

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 8:40 pm

      The dark is not to be feared. And you are correct – repression will be our undoing if we deny what lies deep within. xoxo

  • Donna L. Hamilton, MD Aug 12, 2015, 10:01 am

    Important encouragement to not only look below the “healing surface” but to embrace what’s there, work through it, and emerge on the other side healthier, happier, and transformed. Doing this is an important part of improving our mental, emotional, and spiritual wellness.

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 8:39 pm

      Donna – I appreciate your feedback and validation! <3

  • Tae Aug 12, 2015, 10:37 am

    Wow, this spoke to me. I have been really exploring my soul & making changes. I recently launched my own blog to tell my story & I am getting some judgment/criticism from family. I don’t think they want to hear it because shows a darker side of me they didn’t know existed. I feel at peace & that’s all that matters.

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 8:37 pm

      UGH. I’m sorry your family is acting in that way. Mine did, too, when I launched my website. There was no “good job”, or “looks great – we’re so proud of you.” Instead they overreacted to my personal story, taking offense at two true remarks about my childhood experiences. They are still sore over it.
      The thing is, I spoke the truth – out loud, for all to see. They haven’t ever come to terms with the truth or been honest enough with themselves about their faults and dysfunctions. So for me to point out that our family was far less than the appearance they try so hard to project, was to challenge all the lies they’ve been selling themselves.
      Families are complicated. Everyone has a different experience of the same family. I’m sure you are telling your story,and it’s likely they don’t want to look at it in the light of truth.
      But please don’t let that stop you! Your soul has its own colors and brilliance, and the more you get to showing the entire spectrum, the better. <3

  • Pamela Thompson Aug 12, 2015, 4:20 pm

    Whew! What a powerful and insightful post Lisa! So true. I particularly connected with “Love and light don’t cut it … they’re only part of the equation. Thanks for sharing your wisdom.
    Warm Hugs, Pam

    • Lisa Aug 12, 2015, 8:28 pm

      Thank you for the feedback! <3

  • Jim Aug 28, 2015, 11:50 am

    Powerful wisdom. Thank you for sharing. I am grateful for you, your courage to be vulnerable, and your service in the world! _/|\_ Blessings!!